Ice Queen No More!: It should always be freestyle..

Freestyle..as always...

Up to this moment I'm still thinking of what to write. I've been pressing my keyboard, specifically backspace, for almost fifteen minutes now. But still, I couldn't think of what to write. My fingers couldn't utter any sense. Then i thought of someone... Smile... Then, I started writing... Smile... Sense starts pouring in..

For the longest time, I am always normal. Seems like a bad thing to me. I find my life so steady. Nothing's much special. Every event, episode of your life has a greater chance of happening to me. I mean, its just okay. I wake up everyday (which is I am really thankful!) take a bathe, get some breakfast, prep myself for work & do my usual stuff. I mean it is super ordinary! Nothing's challenging of some sort. Then i read this line, though i'm not sure if i was able to say it as it is. That if you keep on doing the same thing everyday, you would get the same result. Maybe the factor is not what you do but how you do it. If you do your everyday task effortlessly, with the same level of intensity every time, perhaps that'll be the time where you would get the same result each and everyday. But if there would be a little bit more of compassion and intense, then for sure, life would never be the same everyday. I actually know what to do with my life. I know how I should approach things but what makes it dull (I guess) is because I am just not strong enough. I know it for a fact that I am a weakling. I enjoy the company of people whom I thought are not better than me. tsk tsk tsk..so mean.. Cause I feel some sort of superiority whenever I am with them. It's bad.. really really bad. Only these past few days i kinda feel different. I am starting to mingle with other types of personality. I am beginning to learn to be vulnerable to ideas and prejudices. Through these i hope i could be better. I could look at things differently. There should be will in me to absorb and practice things that might help me nourish myself and for the betterment of my being. Life shouldn't always be normal. It shouldn't be lived the way you are asked to live it. No one could ever dictate how you must tread your path. You should know your direction and where you're heading. Such a cliche but it works for me. =)

I must admit. Am really not sure if this blog is worth posting.. but who cares?? hell it is free!! Ciao!

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